Ball Machine

ME vs The Ball Machine

Today I took on the ball machine. I love it!

 I practice and I can see my own improvement!

Weigh in

Thursday night weigh ins...I hate them. I hate weigh ins at night. I worked out and drank a ton of water. I don't want to eat dinner before weighing in, and weigh in/meeting is at 6pm....so I just am not a fan of the Thursday night weigh in. I would rather go to the Saturday Morning meets, but Rob is working :(

Anyways...I lost 2lbs. Yeah!

I am trying out the method of not using my flex points and only using my daily and earned activity points!

Doctor, Doctor give me the news!

I had a doctor appointment today. Since I am doing the steps for lap band my doctor needs to do traditional weight loss monthly appointments with me. And she is watching my diabetes and meds. So it has been 4 weeks since I went. Now she has not helped me AT ALL with the weight loss. I told her my plan. Told her my sugars. Weigh me. And that is all. So it is not really all that helpful. EXCEPT, I was determined not to go back today 4 weeks later without losing some weight. Well, I did...8lbs! I am proud. It would have been more if I did not over do Christmas. But I worked hard to get that right off. So I am excited for those 8lbs.

I am not using that as my offical "weigh in" for the week. I am going to stick with the tracked WW. It is easier. But I started WW after my first appointment. So this number does show my longer work.

Oh and my sugars are perfect. To be considered diabetic your fasting Blood Sugar blood work has to be 126 or above. I had a 126. So I was considered pre-diabtic in Fl, why who knows. So she labeled it what it is. But my A1C was that of a non diabetic person and my sugars have been great. So if I keep working hard and lose this weight, diabtic will not be me :)

Spinning!

So last night I went to bed early. I was all set for spinning. I had my workout clothes set in the bathroom. My water bottles filled. My alarm set for 4:50am! I was ready!!

So I woke up at 5:55am to Emalee looking for me (I was on the couch because I woke at 1 am and she moved into my spot...so it was just easier). I looked at my cell phone and it said 5:55 and I was mad! My alarm did not go off!

Well I got up and went to the gym anyways. Well I get on the Eliptical and turn on th TV. CNN was doing a report that iphones had some alarm failure! Really! On the morning I was all set out to spin my heart out!

Well I still spent an hour at the gym sweating my butt off on the Eliptical! I earned my 6 activity points....spinning would have been 14! I guess I will try again on Friday...the next time a spinning class fits into my schedule!

Sunday at home

So I did plan on doing a yoga video, but that did not happen. The kids and I spent the whole day at home, in PJs cleaning the house. Putting Christmas away. Doing laundry...fun stuff. I am a little bummed that I could not go to the gym. I have been going everyday. BUT Rob was working. It is Sunday and childcare is closed.

But I did very well at home with my points. As of now (6:30pm) I have 4 pts for dessert. And I plan on some popcorn!

For dinner..I made a pot roast. 3 oz is 4 pts. Then I made Mac and Cheese. I tried a new crock pot reciepe...it was okay. I use a standard generic mac and cheese pts of 8 (old pts)so 10points plus. The roll is 3pts. and peas is 3 pts for a cup...I hate like two bites...they sucked! So dinner was a heavy total of 18!!

I only ate that much mac and cheese because I had so many points left for the day...I would have had half of a serving normally! But going into dinner I had only used 8 pts+ for the day.

So I keep wanting to try spinning here. I am going to TRY to go to 5:30am spinning tomorrow. Hopefully it is not crowded!

My New Adventure

I have been struggling with my weight since I was 10 years old. I remember losing weight my freshman year in college because my boyfriend broke up with me and I was a wreak. But once I got over it, I gained it back...plus 40 lbs. I hit 160lbs and felt horrible. So I joined WW and lost it. That is when I meet Rob. I kept the weight off while we dated. After we got married and got pregnant....I went a little crazy with the eating for two thing. I gained 60lbs and had pregancy health issues (gestatinal Diabetes and High blood pressure). It took me a year before I got busy to lose that weight. But I finally did. I was 40lbs down and all set to keep losing when I got pregnant again. This time I gained 40lbs. But again had gestational Diabetes.

So now here I am 2 years and 3 months after Emalee was born and I have lost nothing. I have horrible body image. I hate that I have been so weak. I hate that I keep saying I am going to do it and never do. I hate that I feel like I can not eat what I want without feeling quilty. I feel bad that this is the body image I am giving to my daughters.

I also am now diabetic.

So I am at my breaking point.

I have looked into the Lap Band Surgery. I have seen the surgeon. I have had my psych consult (and was told I was the easiest consult ever! and passed). I have the six months of "trying" because I have been paying for WW online forever! I was all set. I would have had the surgery right then, but I had one more step. I had to see the dietitain for pre surgery diet plan and the Post surgery diet and the lifetime diet. And that is when it hit me. I was really thinking about surgery to lose weight. Why was I not counting points to the T and working out like crazy. I mean that diet plan SCARED ME! I don't think I can do it, but I think it scares me enough. I had that appointment on a Thursday. I went to the new Points plus Weight Watchers meeting on Saturday.

So Weight Watchers and me....we are now best friends. I lost 2 lbs the first weeks. Then of course put them on over Christmas...but then lost them again. So I am back on track after the holidays. And I am going to follow it to the T. Because surgery scares me. But being unhealthy scares me more.

My friend Nina was complaining about her clothes not fitting. So I talked her into joining WW with me. We are together daily. So I thought she would be a perfect buddy!

And Rob's coworker and my friend Crystal has offered to run, walk, lift weights, XC ski, do anything with me. She is super active. So I might have to take her up on it.

So I have rambled on.

This blog. Why am I here? This blog is going to be about me and my hardwork. My ups and downs. My hardships. My sucesses! I am going to use this as a second form of accountabilty. As a journal. And when I reach my goal...my reflection on the process. I hope to print the blog into a book and keep it as a reminder of how hard it is to get on track...so I never go back.

So here it is...my Weight loss Journey! Hope you enjoy it!

(and I will work on making the blog prettier, I promise!)